I grew up in the Baptist church that was taught that being homosexual is a sin and you go to hell. About 10 years ago, I had an experience that lead me to the struggling with the thought of being gay.
I remembered those words “gays go to hell”. And, “You have to choose. Are you going to follow Christ, or walk away and live a life of sin?” Leaving God to be with another woman? I shook my head in disgust. I hated the idea. I hated it with all my being. I hated the GAY word.
I began asking God, “Please take the gay away, please, ppppllleeeeaaaassseee, God”.
Then, I had a moment of calm. I got up, pulled myself together, wiped my tears and said, “Ok, I know what I want and need to do. I choose you Lord. I love you, and there is nothing else in this world that I want...but You. I will not leave You to be gay.”
That moment I decided that I would go to be with Jesus. “Jesus, I want to be with you”. I decided that night to take 15 Ambien, sleeping pills, with the intent to die..but God.
And this is what He said and I will never forget it “You say that being gay is a sin? Well, trying to kill yourself is a sin also. Don't you ever do that again. NO, I WILL NOT TAKE THE “GAY” AWAY. I HAVE WORK FOR YOU TO DO AND PEOPLE TO REACH”.
Hearing this I said, “Yes my Lord”.
I have never looked back since.
I walk freely and with confidence because I know without ANY DOUBT what God said to me. I don't have to explain myself, defend it, prove, debate, or owe anyone and explanation. I stand firm and proud to be a Christian and Gay. Yes, I can be both. God has a purpose and plan for everyone no matter your sexual identity or orientation. God is not surprised by homosexuality because he created us. It’s not worth taking your life over.
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