Were you though? Were you actually straight or living a straight life?
There is often a difference in the lives we live on the outside and our inner world. There are repressed parts of our beings we choose to hide from the world because of fear. We fear the opinions of others. We don't want to disappoint our parents, friends, church leaders, coworkers etc. Our need for community drives us to conform to the larger group ethics and behaviors in order to stay connected. Our worst fear is to be left alone or ostracized by our community.